THE FAULT IN OUR STARS TYPE OF LOVE STORY

HAH. EVERY GIRLS' DREAM ISNT IT.

Well, to be honest, other than the cancer part, it's totally possibly. I mean, you wouldn't wanna include that right?

It's possible to have a love story like that. Yes it is realistic. All you have to do is get that guy (your boyfriend/crush/date) to watch that movie, and FULL STOP. If he doesn't learn from it or just doesn't get it, maybe he isn't what you're looking for. (well cause we're talking bout having a love story like TFIOS right now) 

Few pointers we can learn from that movie:

1. Hazel wasn't desperately looking for somebody to love; love found her. 

Yeah you might say, most of the time, the best things come when you least expect. Well, you could be expecting, but you don't stress on it fully. You get what I mean? 

2. Augustus loved real

Augustus Waters, what a lovely lovely man. Fictional. Every girls' dream.

Mine too. 

Theres something about the way he looks at Hazel, something about the way he treats Hazel, and something bout how he told Hazel he loves her. 

Anybody can tell you "I like you" or "I love you" in this generation without actually meaning it. People start to forget what these three words truly mean and confusion starts kicking in, and yes it sucks. 

I won't actually think that somebody has a crush on me if they chose to even voice out "I like you".

Pretty dumb huh? But it's true. true that i love you. HAHHAAH WHUT. 

In order to not get my heart broken so easily, I choose NOT to just believe anyone that says "I like you"

A girl can tell another girl "I love you" even if they were straight. So.. whats the biggy?

3. The way they forget about the time because they were too distracted by each other.

Well, if you can't do that, i'm pretty sure you two aren't that in love. 

But lemme fan girl a lil over here alright

The way they said "okay", "okay" make my heart melt like chocolate fondue. I LOVE LOVE THAT. 

And when they realise that it was already 1am, but they were still on the phone  ❤︎ that. ughhhhh  ❤︎ 

Quotes I can't get over😂:

"It would be a privilege for my heart to be broken by you" 

"I love you present tense" 

"Some infinities are bigger than other infinities" 

"I'm in love with you"

"I fell in love the way you fell asleep, once and all at once"

“What else? She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is. She is funny without ever being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten. You don’t get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers.” 

“That's why I like you. Do you realize how rare it is to come across a hot girl who creates a adjectival version of the word pedophile? You are so busy being you that you have no idea how utterly unprecedented you are.” 

OKAY? 

OKAY. 

Song of choice:

'Crazy' -Gnarls Barkley (Cover) Daniela Andrade

TUMBLR PICS

Hey ya'll, I'm not too good at handling a tumblr blog yet, so imma post my pics here  ❤︎

but i do have a tumblr blog radicugh.tumblr.com

xx

Instagram: @punkgurliegurl 

Things to be sad about

I'm trying to find my rights to be sad.

1. People are so mean to me
So I actually naively tried to share my new youtube video with my class in the class whatsapp group, and you know my videos are at most 5 mins. So i politely asked if they would take some time to watch that less than 5 mins video for me. What replys did I get? "No time sry" "O-levels coming up" "Ain't nobody got time for that"
why must you be so mean to me? I mean like, words hurt you know. Don't you think it's a little too overboard for a joke? If you have nothing good to say, DON'T.  And you can watch the world cup at midnight and say it's ok, I'm just politely asking "if" you could watch it. I DIDN'T ASK FOR A REPLY ANYWAYS. And, who are you kidding, if you're concentrating on your studies, why are you on your phone then? LIES LIES LIES. WHAT A BUNCH OF MEAN LIARS. One of them even once meant the world to me. 
Why you gotta be so mean? 

2. I feel so invisible
So recently, my teacher allocated me to sit somewhere where I have no friends. It sucks. People look down on me, people literally turn their backs on me, people are so heartless to me. It's so sad. I mean the girl that I'm currently sitting beside with, changed. She changed. And now she's so arrogant and whatnots. Just because you're living your dream doesn't mean you have to be so mean???
And this girl, she NEVER smiles at me. NEVER. I once even invited her to my birthday party. She came. But what now? When I ask her for favours, she just never willingly want to help. She never looks at me in the eye. She looks down on me too. So there was this once, where she(intentionally) gave a certain worksheet to this guy classmate (keep in mind that guy attends the same class as me thats different from the class), and she was asking around who didn't take, and I asked her TWICE. And she unwillingly gave it to me. Like whats wrong with you??? Just that you fancy this guy doesn't mean you treat others meanly.

3. The Society
WHAT has this society turn into??? I hate this society so so much. It's hurting. It denotes that every girl must have perfect skin, skinny legs with a thigh gap and a small waist. It makes us girls forsake our bone structure and what we are supposed to be and what not. Like seriously! Don't you know that some people just have higher metabolism? Thats why they are skinnier than you, but they eat more than you and are not starving??? And theres this painful group of people that starve themselves in order to get skinny. As a result, they become anorexic and a hot topic, and what comes next?? Illness. If anorexia goes out of control, it can become fatal, and that poor girl will obv die and her family members will cry. Why can't we all just forget about they wrong ideal of a perfect body because there is actually none. There is no such thing as "ideal" and theres such a thing as big boned. Go compare someone that is small boned and big, YOU WILL SEE IT. If you don't see the difference in bone size,  go home and tell your mom you need to visit the optometrist.

K. I'M SO SICK OF THIS. BYE.

I'm more than tired

I really hate when this happens. It's like, I feel so depressed deep down, but if I were to consort somebody bout this, they'll most likely not understand(and think they do) what I'm feeling and they try to explain to me what I'm going through. Seriously? You'll bring in the hate man. 

I go around telling ppl I'm really tired. Even my teachers are asking me why am I so tired. Haha yea, I'm realllllly tired. 

Alright. I'm really sad alright. I'm freaking the sadness out of my soul. Help. God? Are you there? Why am I so alone. I'm sitting in class with people that aren't really my friend. Even the one that I thought supposedly to be really kind to me changed. She's no longer the same and I'm hurt. Is the bully cycle of my life starting all over again? 😢

How am I expected to do well this way. 

I'm not even emotionally stable and I can't do anything about it. 

Procrastination

I am inevitably extremely guilty of this. I can't help but fall into procrastination. But I felt like I should actually do something.. Like, writing a blog post. You know umpteen times that I wanted to blog, I don't. I could actually just whip out my phone and type in some words when I'm in the train or bus to somewhere far away. I just can't. I rather stare into space, listen to the same song over and over again. Yeah. Thats me.

I'm so lazy. Unless I've got some motivation, then yea I go hard. But once my mom(or anyone) asks me to study, BOOM! I hate studying, I don't wanna do it anymore. Any student will know how annoying it is for someone to ask you to go study. Especially when you're a super busy person taking a break or something, AND they ask you to study. UDVUIPSBVPIVVSHB

I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE. JUST SHUT UP EVERYONE.

SORRY SOMETIMES I GET CRANKY AND I HATE EVERYONE, OTHERWISE ILL TRY MY BEST TO LOVE, OR AT LEAST TRY TO COVER UP THE HATE.

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