CHAOS//CONFLICT//BAD RELATIONSHIPS

HELLO I'M FINALLY BACK

ACTUALLY I'M ABOUT TO ABOLISH THIS BLOG, BUT FOR THE TIME BEING IM STILL GONNA BLOG.

*News* I am moving to mukthatgirl.wordpress.com  ❤︎

And i'm gonna do a "thoughts" blog and not a personal one like this cause this sucks lol. Nobody cares about what i do in my life even. HAHAHA I KNOW IT GUYS, I KNOW IT.

BUT THIS IS ALSO AN OUTLET WHERE I CAN EXPRESS MYSELF.




OKAY. SO I DONT KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING IN MY LIFE RN
Like what? I feel like even with over 2000(not a lot) followers on instagram, still nobody cares about me, no one cares whether or not i blog, whether I'm having a nice day or if i have talents in any shit.
Im just plainly a face that they follow. How sad isn't it?





Bad relationships.

I thought I found myself good friends and closer friends. But who knew with a "sentence" they said could ruin EVERYTHING.
Now I don't even dare to talk to them cause I'm still hurt. But like I don't want to forgo this friendship. However I still kinda like them.

😔

What should I do? I feel so restless. I should probably isolate myself to prevent further damage isn't it.
So much problems in my life. Real friends I met in school can't seem to maintain a relationship with me. Why? 😔

I try to open up to new people about my problems, but what do they do in the end? Hurt and leave me cause they got bored of me. Enough is enough. I'm not any good. No.

Cant even write well cause every time I was write, I get distracted and bleh I end up not writing. Especially writing music. I get fed up half way though. I'm just so lazy I can't even :(

I wanna get out of the house to work cause i'm so broke and i need money to buy stuffs I want and idk why i don't like to ask from my mom cause like ???

I really need to invest more on my music. Like I wanna get a keyboard. You know the special ones. And some drums( be it the tap one? what dat called?) urgh i hate myself I'm ton kms.
Bye everyone don't care about my tq.