Wednesday, March 19, 2014

OUTDOOR PHOTOSHOOT ♡

So, i'm currently trying to take some pretty photos for my portfolio and stuff like that- Because I love modelling, and i'd need these photos for things like that  ❤︎ 

So here are some photos i found interesting and amazing! All thanks to my friend Cheryln  ❤︎ 
Shoutout to you! I'll hire you if I need you professionally! 







playing basketball๐Ÿ˜‚

 ❤︎ 



I'm a dancer, so it explains my physic!  ❤︎ 



Friday, March 7, 2014

STUDY STRESS CAN KILL

i love it so much how my mother nags at me giving me motivation to study harder.

OMG. STAHP IT.

I hate it — the pressure that you're giving me. I know, i know it’s my finals year. I know it. What have I done seriously. I’m just putting makeup on, cause we (my mom and I) are going out for lunch. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THAT SERIOUSLY. and u come in and tell me to stop going out and start studying. 

Pre-required knowledge: 1. I go to school, and back home. 2. I have tuitions until 9,10pm on certain days. 3, Sometimes I have CCA that require me to stay back till 7pm. 4. I study on either sat/sun. 5. I fall sick frequently due to stress. 

AND YOU. TELLING ME TO STUDYING HARDER. OMG. I REALLY honestly feel like stabbing myself in the feels. THE STRESS YOU GAVE ME FROM THOSE TWO SENTENCES COULD REALLY END MY LIFE. 

And you reading my blog must be thinking, i have a psychological disorder. Yea, it’s true. 
























HELP.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Name Me Anything Worst Than This, Cause I Can't

First Of All, I want you to know that our psychological wellbeing is more concerning than our physical wellbeing. Why? You Maybe Wondering. Because, we may be sick but still be positive. But, when we’re negative, our bodies become weak and sick as well. ♡

Have you ever felt like it’s really hard to find someone you trust to share with them everything that goes through your mind? Like somehow they’re gonna use that vulnerable side of you to hurt you instead? Yea, all our past mistakes tell us the same story of us, being too foolish & too trusting. 

What’s worst than once thinking you’ve found someone that understands you and that he/she is the one that understand you like no one else, not even your mother understood you.  So, you went on telling them your true feelings,  your past hurts, your weaknesses, how vulnerable of a soul you are, and not that strong after all. THEN you find out that they don't even believe everything you said — your past hurts, feelings, everything you've gone through. 
Cause they seem to act like they understand everybody, put themselves into everybody’s shoes, to understand whatever they are going through. But in the end, whatever they are just rubbish crap, they don't even understand what they’re talking about. They don’t even know the pain you're going through or once went through exist at all, but they act like they’re the ones who went through the MOST. So, they're the wisest counsel. RUBBISH. 
I think, them acting this way, just show they’re level of intelligence — no offence to you but, it’s just how you make me feel.


Do you even know.. How much courage there has to be? For me, to tell you what ive been through? Depressions (if I may list), anxiety, self-harm, feelings of not wanting to live anymore, loneliness, crying every single night to fall asleep? Think about these people that went through all of these? It’s not as simple as you think. NO, they aren’t trying to gain attention. No. They’re just trying to ease the pain. By a lil. 

Body, Mind, Soul

This blog has totally digressed out of theme. It has became more of a “my life” blog, with upcoming fitness/fashion/dance posts coming up. But still most of it still comes from my thoughts, and philosophy. It’s more of a diary I should say..